Alcoholic Wedding Redux

So, after quite a long weekend, I am just getting back from a wedding. See Alcoholic Wedding. This can be termed "Alcoholic Wedding Redux." It was grand, and grander than the wedding was the incredible atmosphere of friends and family. But even more grandiose than that were images of a world that had always been beyond the grasps of my fingertips. Have you ever randomly flipped through magazines only to find images of beautiful people whom seem to have a perfect life, on whom the sun always shines and the rain never flows? I used to believe that such a life was a complete lie, and that nothing positive would ever exist in a world so hideous but this weekend has proven me completely wrong. I now stare out towards the dawn of a new day after the hands of Fate have briefly given me a hiatus from the savage jungle in which I spend my fearful days. I have seen paradise, I have witnessed a world beyond my own that I had strived for day after day, though I have since given up. I knew for sometime I had died inside and was merely a shell of a man going throughout the daily routines in a vain attempt to accomplish something that held no personal significance. Though I knew I was dead, I couldn't quite pinpoint how or what it was like not to be dead - though this past weekend had changed all that and presented me with a world that I had forgotten about. I realize now that my entire 'Prelude to the Apocalypse' philosophy is completely wrong and that everything in my life must be completely abandoned in order for a betterment of my soul to take place. In the beginning of that reconstruction one thing must be present: God. From that point I can begin to build my life the way those at the wedding had, from the lowest point in my life I can begin to build a firm foundation - a foundation that will be able to supply a tower reaching into the highest points of the sky. After which I can cast off my loner tendencies and finally admit that I need other people, that I can't go through life alone, and that without companionship I whither and die. I just pray that in the months to come I will not forget this.